All i need is u..now..

Sometimes i wonder..
why can't i fall in love with others..even i try to love others..
still i can't show that i really love them..
even how hard i tried..

it's because of these heart already belong to someone..
It's not easy to let go of someone that been with u for such a long time..
Sharing wonderful moments that making u happy..
Even i cried while typing these letters..
how much do i say i missed her..
every seconds in my life asking how she was today..
what does she do atm..
but..

Things cannot be the same again..
n im the one to blame..
I don't want to see her tears again bcause of me..
I can't see her smiles again..
I lost the love that meant so much to me..

I always told her that please don't care bout things that people says bout us before..
Im willing to learn everythng bout her if given the chances..
everyday waking up at the same time..
saying that i love u to each other..

U may call me a lovers..a sweet talk..
n yes i do..but all of them was from my heart..
I can't makes things that i love to do for her..
that is making poems..
Coz everytime im thinkin of it..
my heart aches..coz i missed her so much..

Im sorry that im not a romantic guy to u..
but i'll try to be one someday..

all i need is u..

Knock-knock :3

Ah..i remmber this is the game that i always play with her :3
Knock-knock game :3..
What does that game means?Well,let me see..different people got their own idea of how the game works right?
for us..me :3..i used to think that this game was like when ur already livin in the same roof teasing ur wife..hehe :3..well thats my perspective of coz i bet u got ur own way of doin it right..

Im not that gud makin a blog =.=..
so im sorry if i can't show any fancy picture or music =.=..
i used to ask her to teach me how to put some in but..u know me :3..
ahh i missed playin that game with her..hmm..
if things can go as what have u planned too,i would like to planned so much better than what i've planned today with her..so the next day would be more wonderful than today used to be..
only talking cannot makes things the same again..
i regret having that attidude..
from now on i'll try to be someone new so i can proved to her that because of her..
i can be someone that were much better than i do now..
and i wan to thank her for making me feels like that..

for making me special everytime i'm with her..
for making me feel loved everytime i'm with her..
for making me feel i can do better than i do before..

n the most important is..

For making me love her like no one ever does to me before..

Im having a flu atm =.=..
I guess this is the end of my story for the night :3..

till we meet on the next stories..

Night <3..

Ax~

Thank u for the wonderful memories

Its been 7 years since i been with her..
eventhough its hard for me to accept but i had to move on eventually right..
Im kinda guy that always say and promise words to anyone..
i always thought that someday it'll come true..
but truth is..it can't..
i feel regret having that kind of attidude..if given the time to rewind back..
i would love to travel back in time where i hurted the feelings of others that always been dissapointed on me especially to the one i love..
i always thought that i will get married to her someday..having a family..a wonderful time decorating the house..
but things cannot be the same again..i lost her..it's all because of me being that person that always being selfish and doesn't want to move on..
i always being hard on her without thinking of her feelings..
if given the chances of being together back with her..i will never let the chances again..
coz i want the moments to last forever..
things will get different from now on..
every cloud have their own silver lining right..
if this things never happen..i will never had the guts to move on..
i hope what i've planned will go as it what suppose to be..
i hope that someday..she would ask me to make her love poems again..
coz that the only thing that i love to do for her..
i will always do love u eventhough her heart belongs to someone else..
thank u for the wonderful memories my love..
i'm sorry that i always dissapointed u in many ways..
i hope u'll be much happier beside the one ur love now..
never a single day i regret being with u..


These heart will always belongs to u..
till the end of time..
thats my promise..

Gud nite :3..
Ax..

First things to do :D!

Well..alohaaa people xD!
1st time i wrote a blog -.-..firstly im sorry if my english is bad ( it sure is -.- )
to begin with this things i wan to share smethng bout this blog 1st :p..
well have u'll seen the movie called there's something bout Mary?
nahh this is not bout Mary its bout the story of me n her xD!
its mst be boring to read love story of others rght but u can also learn from it too rght xD!

to begin with i'll u'll tell how do i met her :)
its was 10 years ago i think =.=..in the elimntary school..i changed my school often coz reasons i don't know at that time xD!
1st class i was put in is 6 teratai if im nt mistaken =.=..then bout 1 month there i was *naik level xD!*
to 6 mawar xD!there i met her :D..hmm..i can't realy compare which one was her n her twins coz at tht time they both looks the same 0.0..
day by day passing..

to be continue at night time xD!

Well it sure does take me long to visit this blog again ._.
so day by day passing by we grew up..n peeps would u believe if i said we're in the same class from the primary school n secondary up until form 5 o.o? Imagen ur in a class doin naughty things (i mean like get scold by the teachers,got 0 marks in test -.- & etc)
I'm sure missed that moments xD!Hmm..i wonder what sushi taste that time e.e..(adakah teringat sushi pla time tu >.>)
1 things i like to do when im in anger or what i loved to make poems (itu buku ahh sudah ilang kna rompak kawan o.o) in that book i wrote many of my poems bout my feelings coz i am a guy that didnt like to express my feeling to others :p ( so peeps dont hve to trouble urself askin me why i looked upset or somethng coz i'll just smile n laugh with u xD! )

Its been almost 6 years already..n i still madly in love with her :3!!

I gotta continue this tommorow coz im soo damn tired atm ._.

ahh..it's been a while since im updating this blog hehe..
it's not that im busy or what but i always do forgot to update it so now is my chance to update it :p

Let me see..
Ah..i couldn't think that i can further the love story anymore..
coz every love story not all of em ended with a happy scene right :3..
People say..feelings will change when time passin by..
Well, for me it's not who or when or the time..
It's all about the power of love..wait?the power of love?
Hehe i guess everyone had experienced it before too right :3
Well i guess i do too..ahh the 1st time i falld in love..it's really blindin my eyes coz its my heart was do all the things not my heart..
thats why people say love blindin ur eyes isn't >,<!

A poems..hmm..what can a poems tell u?
does it tells u love story?
does it tells u how to love?
For me it's how do u expressing ur love towards the one that u love..
She gave me the feelings to do it then i gave her back the way i like to do it..
Becoming a poet to her :3..

Love..i don't know what that suppose to meant anymore..
I think im the one that actually that doesn't know what love really means..
Ahh..the pain =.=..

Im not a gud lover..or a poet..but only someone that doesn't know how to appreciate someone that i loved..
Gud nite..again =.=..

Truly Ax..