All i need is u..now..

Sometimes i wonder..
why can't i fall in love with others..even i try to love others..
still i can't show that i really love them..
even how hard i tried..

it's because of these heart already belong to someone..
It's not easy to let go of someone that been with u for such a long time..
Sharing wonderful moments that making u happy..
Even i cried while typing these letters..
how much do i say i missed her..
every seconds in my life asking how she was today..
what does she do atm..
but..

Things cannot be the same again..
n im the one to blame..
I don't want to see her tears again bcause of me..
I can't see her smiles again..
I lost the love that meant so much to me..

I always told her that please don't care bout things that people says bout us before..
Im willing to learn everythng bout her if given the chances..
everyday waking up at the same time..
saying that i love u to each other..

U may call me a lovers..a sweet talk..
n yes i do..but all of them was from my heart..
I can't makes things that i love to do for her..
that is making poems..
Coz everytime im thinkin of it..
my heart aches..coz i missed her so much..

Im sorry that im not a romantic guy to u..
but i'll try to be one someday..

all i need is u..

Knock-knock :3

Ah..i remmber this is the game that i always play with her :3
Knock-knock game :3..
What does that game means?Well,let me see..different people got their own idea of how the game works right?
for us..me :3..i used to think that this game was like when ur already livin in the same roof teasing ur wife..hehe :3..well thats my perspective of coz i bet u got ur own way of doin it right..

Im not that gud makin a blog =.=..
so im sorry if i can't show any fancy picture or music =.=..
i used to ask her to teach me how to put some in but..u know me :3..
ahh i missed playin that game with her..hmm..
if things can go as what have u planned too,i would like to planned so much better than what i've planned today with her..so the next day would be more wonderful than today used to be..
only talking cannot makes things the same again..
i regret having that attidude..
from now on i'll try to be someone new so i can proved to her that because of her..
i can be someone that were much better than i do now..
and i wan to thank her for making me feels like that..

for making me special everytime i'm with her..
for making me feel loved everytime i'm with her..
for making me feel i can do better than i do before..

n the most important is..

For making me love her like no one ever does to me before..

Im having a flu atm =.=..
I guess this is the end of my story for the night :3..

till we meet on the next stories..

Night <3..

Ax~

Thank u for the wonderful memories

Its been 7 years since i been with her..
eventhough its hard for me to accept but i had to move on eventually right..
Im kinda guy that always say and promise words to anyone..
i always thought that someday it'll come true..
but truth is..it can't..
i feel regret having that kind of attidude..if given the time to rewind back..
i would love to travel back in time where i hurted the feelings of others that always been dissapointed on me especially to the one i love..
i always thought that i will get married to her someday..having a family..a wonderful time decorating the house..
but things cannot be the same again..i lost her..it's all because of me being that person that always being selfish and doesn't want to move on..
i always being hard on her without thinking of her feelings..
if given the chances of being together back with her..i will never let the chances again..
coz i want the moments to last forever..
things will get different from now on..
every cloud have their own silver lining right..
if this things never happen..i will never had the guts to move on..
i hope what i've planned will go as it what suppose to be..
i hope that someday..she would ask me to make her love poems again..
coz that the only thing that i love to do for her..
i will always do love u eventhough her heart belongs to someone else..
thank u for the wonderful memories my love..
i'm sorry that i always dissapointed u in many ways..
i hope u'll be much happier beside the one ur love now..
never a single day i regret being with u..


These heart will always belongs to u..
till the end of time..
thats my promise..

Gud nite :3..
Ax..